2 posts tagged “hope”
Dreaming - 24"x30", hangs in my bedroom. not for sale. This was Painting Experiment v2.0.
Hope - 24"x30", hangs in my bedroom. not for sale. This is my fourth painting.
Hell - 24" square, hangs in my dining room but available for sale if someone really loves it enough to want to buy it. This is #3.
I'll take pictures of Apprehension (24"x30", commissioned) and one I'm provisionally calling Dawn (16"x20") once they are dry, I just painted them last night. It was my first time painting since getting frustrated on January 9th by a painting that I hated. Guess what that one will be called when I finally finish it?
My kids gums are suddenly, overnight, red and swollen, and bleeding every time their teeth are brushed. As a result, there is a lot of crying now. They went to the dentist yesterday for a checkup/cleaning and it is actually worse today. Someone suggested it might be a vitamin C deficiency, so I'm going to give that a try for the next few days.
I can hear the harddrive on my home computer clicking away. This is not a good sign. It may have hours or days left in it. But I don't think much more than that.
My week has been consumed by responding to something that shouldn't have happened. I spent a lot of time last week trying to make sure it wouldn't happen. But it did, and now people are wishing they had listened. I could be happy that I was right, but I would rather be personally wrong than in the current situation which impacts far more than just me.
Allyson got four vaccines this morning at her pediatrician visit. I have never seen her cry and scream like that, trying to get her arms away from the nurse. I had to look away so she wouldn't see me cry.
I'm presenting at TechReady next week. I have MC'ed and organized conferences, but haven't been a speaker at one since 1998. And last week my co-presenter was job eliminated. So I am trying to build confidence and my knowledge base to be able to deliver the presentation solo.
Wow, the computer sounds awful. Glad I have a work laptop.
And oddly, even with all this, life is ok. It is all temporary, transient crap. So I know things will get better. I'm eating a super tasty smoked cheddar cheese on cracked pepper crackers, I'm going to take a long relaxing shower in a bit, and I'm working on writing my job commitments (ok, that isn't so fun, but stay with me here). I'm excited about something I wrote this afternoon that should go public *soon*, because I have been struggling with writing documents at work on different topics but this one came easily and I think is really good. Feeling competent is nice. So is feeling hopeful about the future. And I am feeling both tonight.
Though I am not hopeful about the future of my harddrive. That bitch is definitely dying soon.
